3days back it was my birthday and I decided to live fully and enjoy life everyday

3days back it was my birthday I went to govind dev ji and enjoyed with family , was 3days leave and I enjoyed life a lot.

I decided to be happy and enjoy every moment everyday but when I went to office today after 3days day went same before it was , getting taunts , working for the job ....my day is ended with no happiness and enjoying but a guilt again , same tensions whereas I decided to enjoy because it was since college to today 8years and from my heart I can say I never enjoyed anything , got 3friends in life to 0 now, have one friend to whom I talk everyday but is my online friend 

I am not rich or even in middle class but working for money and even not getting it and dying everyday is it a life ? When will I be able to enjoy everyday like a child ....

Sorry for all this but I wanted to share it so I did sorry ...